Temps have been hovering around 101-102 today...feel a lot better, but still not able to do a show.
Got heavy coughs and some flu-pains. So...no show tonight. Sorry.
I figured I'm not going to do a show until it will have minimal health interruptions.
Hopefully by tomorrow I'm not a mess enough to do it.
I had this realization and damn near broke. I knew my boss had plans for my career, and understand long term this is going to be both intellectually and financially rewarding, but I have spent thr last 28 years working on an Ambulance at least some. There is a strong likelihood in the next 2 years I am going to have my last ambulance run. At that point I am going to be a Paramedic on paper. There will be a day that people won't know what I actually have done. I will literally be a desk medic. The sad part is, I won't turn it down. I won't allow someone who doesn't get it to take over what needs of the company, the patients, and the employees. But its like I see a part of my life ending. And I don't have a place to dump this anywhere. My life is changing and I am 50 years old. And it dawned on me I have had several bosses at different places setting me up for this.